God spoke to me today about my situation.
Isaiah 50.10-11 says “Who is among you that fears the LORD, That obeys the voice of His servant, That walks in darkness and has no light? Let him trust in the name of the LORD and rely on his God. 11 Behold, all you who kindle a fire, Who encircle yourselves with firebrands, Walk in the light of your fire And among the brands you have set ablaze. This you will have from My hand; And you will lie down in torment.”
I desire certainty and long term goals. I want a farther along in life so that when I’m introduced to someone my friend can say “Mr. X this is my friend Cris, he’s a _____” and they will look me in the eye with respect. I struggled for years with indecision because I wanted to do things that I thought I couldn’t, or thought I couldn’t do things because I thought I shouldn’t and now that I’m coming to a point in life of going forward with my plans anyway it seems like I should have been where I am today about, I don’t know, ten or twelve years ago.
Isaiah 46.3-4 says “Listen to Me, O house of Jacob, And all the remnant of the house of Israel, You who have been borne by Me from birth, And have been carried from the womb; 4 Even to your old age, I shall be the same, and even to your graying years I shall bear you! I have done it, and I shall carry you; And I shall bear you, and I shall deliver you.”
Right now I’m in the dark, I don’t know where the future is leading, or how to get there, I can’t even see the pitfalls on either side of my path. That’s where I’m at right now. I’m in the dark and have to trust Father God to carry me, but I thank God that He reassures us that its actually a good place to be. It’s better for me to be in the dark being carried helpless by Father God than to be stoking a fire on the forest floor and huddling in close for light and heat.
There’s still a lot of doing that happens in this kind of darkness. In Hebrews 11 the author talks about all the guys in the old testament who did amazing things. Abraham was the Father of Faith because God made a promise to him in the dark and Abraham couldn’t see how it would happen. He believed God. Over and over and over again the author says that by faith they did this stuff, and it shows me that many great things are done by God’s people when they are just in faith obeying what they have, even not seeing the fulfillment of what they are doing.
I’m committed to doing whatever I think God wants me to do today, I’m resting in His arms as he carries me throughout my life. I’m not worried about tomorrow because there is a God up there who will carry those who put their trust in Him. In the end all I really know is that I want to do whatever God made me for, and if I get it done when I’m 33 like Jesus did or when I’m 100 like Abraham did, that’s just fine.
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Hey Cris,
ReplyDeleteLife, and God's will, flows along a very natural path. It never struggles to break free of that path. It just flows. That doesn't mean that there aren't rough waters, but it is still natural. Have you ever met someone who was in a seemingly bad situation, but they knew that they were in the right place and never seemed stressed about it? That's what being in the flow is like.
Don't worry about the future, and definitely don't worry about if you have a title with which your friends can introduce you. Just do what feels right. Last month I quite a stable job that had a lot of promise of promotion to do a fully commission job with no promotion potential. But guess what? I haven't been stressed a single day. My needs have been met, and I have a lot of time to write and pursue where I feel I'm supposed to be in life. It feels right.
Take a look at a post I did on this very topic.
http://greatbrumby.wordpress.com/2011/06/30/listening-to-the-flow-of-life/